What I know now,
that I didn't know before:
Feelings are currency, and needs change.
testimonial Tuesday #22
In session #11, Rachael and I talked about needs and wants. And money. We addressed the reality that NEEDS CHANGE. That WANTS change. And that the need and want for money and all that it has to ‘offer’ changes as well. In my recent history, I have not been in the position to need anything beyond what was absolutely necessary (food and shelter, clothes on my back, some kind of income etc.) for the general functioning of my life. As I move into this next chapter -one in which abundant ease and joy have finally made it onto the list of bare necessities- I have had to address the fact that I no longer wish to live on crumbs, and perhaps more importantly (and with a lot of help from Rachael), I have had to start letting it be OK that I no longer wish to do so.
As I move beyond the life I have always known and into a life that is unfamiliar
(yet deeply satisfying), my needs are shifting. A lot.
And, as it turns out, I have a lot of feelings about it.
This week, I left my second job (server at an upscale steak house). Having that job was helpful and necessary during the transition from no-work (in January) to my current forty-hour work week, but I promised myself that when it was time, I would let it go. And recently, thanks in large part to my work with Rachael, I was able to start picking up on the Universal pull to do just that; to let it go. To create space for whatever is coming next (a level of awareness that I attribute largely to reiki work and energy clearing). As I discussed this -and my hesitation at giving up the extra income- with Rachael, she presented me with the following idea: ‘Feelings as currency’.
Feelings as currency.
About 77% of that made sense to me during our session. Then, I gave up my second job. I was nervous, but my needs were changing ie; the need to make extra cash was becoming outweighed by the need for an enjoyable existence outside of work which means the time to hike, sleep, watch movies, hang with friends, do nothing…all of which you don’t get when you choose to work constantly.
Feelings as currency.
The morning after I gave up my second job, I woke up feeling nervous…and ten pounds lighter. “But what about the money??!?!”…feelings as currency…Rachael’s words keep ringing over and over in my ears… feelings as currency… feelings as currency…and then it hit me. If FEELINGS can also be counted as currency, then my feelings of joy and elation at having free weekends, at having the option to sleep in after a week of work, at having time to take care of myself might all prove to be worth more than the extra cash. Perhaps feelings truly ARE another form of currency, albeit a slightly foreign one.
Perhaps truly LIVING the life that I have been working so hard to pay for is equally as important as being able to pay for it.
Perhaps giving up tangible currency in the short term isn’t really giving up currency at all. It is simply allowing it to change form. If I FEEL how I want to FEEL, and I feel it a lot MORE when I am NOT working two jobs, then isn’t my NEED for abundance being met? If I am allowing myself the time and space to take care of my physical, emotional and spiritual needs -all of which makes me feel good- and I am considering my feelings a FORM of currency, then aren't I doubling or even tripling my income?
It may sound like a stretch, but I can tell you this: It FEELS right on the money.
If feelings are currency, then it is no mistake that I have chosen to pursue emotional and spiritual health and cleansing via my work with Rachael, in exchange for tangible currency. What’s more, I am certain that without doing THIS work, I would not be able to recognize true wealth of any kind. Even if it bought me a yacht.
And yes, I understand that my feelings about having a yacht cannot actually make the down payment, but my feelings about my life and my needs and how well they are being met could definitely contribute to me being the kind of person who figures out how to buy a freakin’ yacht… and one who can figure out how to pay for it.
How much life could YOU buy with the contents of your emotional bank account?
What do YOU know now,
that you didn't know before?