What I know now,
that I didn't know before:
Just because you know the answer,
it doesn’t mean you have to do anything about it…yet.
TESTIMONIAL TUESDAY #10
Have you ever prayed for a sign? Perhaps in a relationship or with a job or what have you, you are confused about what to do about x,y,z -whether or not to pursue or proceed or whatever the case may be- and so you ask for a sign. You do your best to listen to your internal guidance system. You look for clues based on any number of ‘conditions’…and low and behold, you get what you were asking for. You get… a sign (at which point, if you are me, you promptly ask for another sign to let you know that that was, indeed, a sign), or that little voice from within comes through loud and clear and you get your answer. You know what you need to do. And then…either out of fear or out of disappointment over the truth…you decide that it is NOT the answer that you were hoping for, and you talk yourself out of listening.
I compare this to driving down the highway with your GPS on, telling you where to go, and every time it gives you a direction, instead of listening, you decided that the instructions are incorrect, and you drive past your exit, and then around in circles for a while, only to find that -indeed- the original direction was right.
Do you ever do this? I do this. I do this less frequently than I use to, but still with some regularity. And it is not because I doubt my own internal GPS or I doubt the ‘signs’ (I am a big believer in signs), but because it is scary to trust what you cannot see. I’m guessing we have all had the experience of knowing that we needed to do something or not do something, even though we didn’t exactly know why at that moment, but we do/don’t it anyway, and find that the reason reveals itself in time. Sometimes, very quickly. Either way, in order for that to happen; for the reason to reveal itself, we must first do the thing that we were getting the nudge to do, no matter how scary or non-sensical.
In my most recent session with Rachael, we discussed this. The need to constantly ‘figure everything out’ while simultaneously ignoring the answers that I am receiving because they feel too overwhelming to pay attention to. In response to this, Rachael said something to me that seemed to slow the gears in my brain...
“Just because you know what you need to do,
it doesn’t mean that you have to do it
RIGHT THIS SECOND.”
'Woah...' and ‘Oh, thank God, that takes a lot of the pressure off.’
Just because I know I need to have a big conversation with someone/quit my job/end a relationship/start a relationship/fess up…it doesn’t mean I have to do it right at this very moment. It is ok to take a second and allow ourselves to get a little more comfortable with handling whatever has crossed out paths. Think of it this way; just because a sixteen year old HAS their drivers license, do you send them on a cross country road trip in your new BMW 5-speed convertible? Not so much.
The truth is, we already have the answers we seek to the questions we ask. They are with us, inside of us, all around us, somewhere, ever present when we are willing to listen. It is the feeling that we must immediately DO something once we have the answers that all too often prevents us from seeking the truth in the first place.
So here is my proposal moving forward. It is the little gem that made a huge difference in my life this week, and I offer it to you and anyone whom might find peace within it: You can have the information, and just hold it for a moment. Just wait. Wait until it is time to act, trusting that, just as you knew the answer would come to you, so will the opportunity to ‘try it out’. Think of it as a personal knowledge savings account. You collect and save, that way you are ready to act when the moment strikes. Now I hope it goes with out saying that should you see someone choking, you will not sit and ‘consider your options’ before you administer the Heimlich maneuver, but for the big stuff in YOUR life, the potentially life changing stuff, the really scary stuff, it’s ok to know the answer…and then give yourself a breather before you decide what to do with it.
What do you know now, that you didn’t want to know before?
What do YOU know now,
that you didn’t know before?