The moment before:
I just dropped my father off at the train station after a whirlwind 24 hour visit. My heart is heavy and I am sad to have realized just how much my jolly nature has been lying low as of late. On the other hand, I am SO happy that my father was here, grateful to have had such a wonderful visit, and relieved to re-remember, yet again, another part of myself that seems to only come out to play in small doses here in NYC.
the Oregon trail
I am feeling sad enough that I almost don’t want to have a session…which is SAD…but naturally, I know better and am relieved to hear Rachael’s voice as soon as I answer her call.
She notes that my energy feels heavy and immediately inquires as to the state of my heart. I tell her about my father’s visit, and she is quick to empathize, reminding me:
“Aren’t we so lucky to have parents that we love THAT MUCH?!”
We are so lucky.
I am so lucky to have two parents who have loved me as hard and as best they could, and still continue to do so, long after I have –essentially- flown the coop.
I remember when I was younger; feeling like anyone who moved home to be ‘close to mom and dad’ was just a two bit hack who took the easy road because they didn’t have what it takes to make it on their own. Now, I feel quite the opposite. I would consider myself incredibly lucky to live in close proximity to my mother and father, especially when the day comes that I have a family of my own to take care of. I want my children to know my parents; to soak in all the love and hard earned wisdom that they have acquired in their combined 135 years on the planet. I want to continue to know my parents as they continue to evolve throughout the rest of their lives. They are so incredibly dear to me and two of my absolute most favorite people on the entire planet, why WOULDN’T I want to be close them?
This all came up in my session, right after the reiki, which happened right after Rachael asked me for my intention. I gave her some long winded answer about wanting –nay- NEEDING to ‘be ok with being here’ (NYC) and praying to let go of whatever it was/is that keeps me feeling like I have one foot out the door, or like I am still not quite where I am supposed to be.
Yes, it feels VERY heavy.
Rachael draws my attention to the sensation of being trapped in the problem –energetically speaking, where I am constantly seeking a solution, and doing so with the same mindset that is creating/living the problem in the first place-, and requests that as she does the energy clearing, I let myself rise out of the problem, and feel for the solution.
And with that, we begin.
(This part always makes me smile)
I lye back and hear Rachael say “Talk to you in a bit” following which she mutes the phone on her end and I drift off into a blissful cloud of nothingness. I take a few deep breaths and instantly feel the rays of sunny warmth that I have come to associate with Rachael’s healing-powers wash over me, as the heavy, stale energy is lifted from my vibrational field. Although each session is different, the essence is a lot like coming up for air after a reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally long swim;
like you didn’t even notice how depleted your energy was until you were able to take a full breath.
This process, which is referred to as energy tracing, is incredibly transformative. It’s a conversation with your inner most knowing’s; the places inside of you that are totally tuned in with your heart and all of your senses, but are so frequently drowned out by all the life crap, that you really need a translator to communicate between the two worlds.
Rachael is one such person.
She worked for about fifteen minutes, following which she came back on line with a LOT of information to share with me about what I was experiencing internally.
This, I have lovingly come to refer to, as ‘Chakra talk’, and it is one of my most favorite parts of our sessions together. Rachael goes thru each chakra (the energy centers of our body), clarifying what each one represents, and then sharing with me the particular message/s that are resonating within.
And if you’re still confused, picture it like this;
...decide that you are going to find that damn treasure once and for all...
and then realize that you’re going to need a really good Sherpa.
-SEE METAPHORICAL SHERPA IMAGES BELOW-
RACHAEL is the best
(Listed below in bold is the information that Rachael ‘translated’ -on my behalf- back to me, from myself.
The italicized comments are my real time responses to the information I was given.)